If you died tomorrow would you be proud of your life?

So many times, not only was I ashamed of my life but I actively tried to get myself killed. Any risk I took face first. I did this because of the short falls of my life. I wasn’t living up to the potential I knew I could achieve and that we all can achieve. I wanted to be the one to lean on. I wanted to be the honorable big brother to my fellow men and women who would was willing to sacrifice, protect, inspire and provide for them. For eight years I have tried to achieve this goal by showing all those around me how grateful I am to have them in my life and give something back. To lend support, to listen, to help build their dreams as they did for me.

 

Many years ago someone told me to focus on me. To look out and take care of me because I wasn’t in a good place. And that this person needed to do the same. But they were wrong. Looking out for yourself will only get you so far. That will make you average. Those who want to help everyone. Who are willing to shoulder the burden we change the world. We inspire. Because we do what is hard, what is illogical, what is painful. We run towards danger to help others. We don’t run away to protect ourselves. That is what I wanted to achieve and falling short was killing me. But I kept trying. I kept working on my dream. I knew that my invention wouldn’t only help the planet. It had the potential to change the way we think. Not only can we now remove microplastics from the water but that idea started with a half drunk dreamer at the country club of virginia. I walked out of there a failure. I looked my friends in the eyes and knew we were headed back to the same shit hole we lived in. We were headed back to our average lives of life, rent, and death. I walked back in and made a contact that started all of this for them. I’m not trying to change the physical world that is secondary. I want to change the hearts of the people in it. I want my story to be one of someone who came from the shitiest apartment in richmond. Someone who should have never been invited to the country club of virginia. Someone who had been abandoned, marginalized, and banished from his home by what was left of his family. Someone filled with shame, failure, pain and hate. If I could achieve this then all of you could see that I am not special. We all are special. We all dream and feel love in our hearts. All that is stopping us is that we are thinking about ourselves. We are consumed by the fear. We need to build a better world of the heart. Inspire the ones we love. We all need to love one another.

 

Tonight is the first night I go to sleep proud of my life because of a phone call I got today. My big sister. The successful responsible one of the family called me the black sheep today to thank me for inspiring her. She had a dream to change some hospital protocols that would protect patients and doctors. She had a dream to help others and asked for my help and inspiration. She said you have achieved so much and made so many positive changes in your life I wanted to better myself and the world around me too. She worked on her policy for a year. She was doubted, ignored, and marginalized just like I was in the beginning. I told her to stay with it. Fight. Keep hope alive. Fight for your dream. It is worth it. You can help these people if you don’t give up. You are right and it is a good idea. We need this and you are capable of shouldering the burden to get us there. You are strong enough to achieve this dream and win the hard fight ahead. You have the courage to have patience and the perseverance because this will be hard, this will take years. I have complete faith in my big sister as she did in her little brother.

Today she was nominated for a nightingale award because of her new policy. The head of her hospital was so proud of my big sister he nominated her because she fought to change the world for other people. My big sister was inspired to fight because of the little brother who fought for her. My big sister was recognize for her achievement, courage, and heart. And when the battle was won she called her little black sheep brother and said thanks for inspiring me.

 

My inventions are in major circles. You will see them soon. We can clean the water. We can reduce coal emissions by 93%. We can generate electricity in new ways. And I am just getting started. But what I am proud of most is the reinvention of myself. Taking the pieces of my shattered life and making a beautiful inspiring mosaic of love, dreams, invention and determination.

 

I got here because I fought for others. I got here because I dreamed. You can too. I know it.

42. ACCIDENTALLY ON PURPOSE

Well America book two is wrapping up. When I say that it’s 3/4 done which means 6 months-ish due to financial restraints. Tragically I’m still a carpenter and a poor one. But buy my book Playing Your Hand Right: Showing America How To Live tell your friends and make me a writer. In honor of book two coming out I will be releasing some of the chapters from the first book. If your new to my blog you only get the unedited drunken free writes here. For the full on copy you have to pay the terrible price of 3 dollars for a kindle copy 9 for print. Available on Amazon.com link follows. http://www.amazon.com/Playing-Your-Hand-Right-Showing/dp/1484829794/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1385767769&sr=8-1&keywords=playing+your+hand+right. As I was saying book two is almost done so in honor of that here are the professionally edited fully revised chapters of book one. So sit back, make a drink, pack your bowls and enjoy the first of many more to come. This is the last chapter in my first book Playing Your Hand Right: Showing America How To Live. Personally it is my favorite but I could probably say that about most of them. Leave me a comment below, I love feed back and if your feeling very adventurous try my first book.

42. ACCIDENTALLY ON PURPOSE

So one night, I invited a fuck buddy to come by for a night of kinky adulterism. I thought I was cool with all forms of sex till I met this chick. First she tried to finger my ass while blowing me. Not cool ladies. I felt a finger go from fondling balls to my no-no spot. After I removed my fingernails from the ceiling and climbed down, she explained to me that she had banged every guy she had been with. And I don’t mean bang in the good way. I told her not this horse. Line one found.

During another night of sexual shenanigans, she asked me to cut her with a dinner knife. Well, as well as she could ask through a ball gag while she was tied up in the entryway. I thought that would look great; the cops come in, see me with a dinner knife; woman tied up, death by thousand cuts, and boom: headshot. Thoughts of me being gunned down wearing nothing but a condom and holding a magic wand in one hand and a knife in the other was not exactly my kind of night. Also, the sight of blood makes me lightheaded and completely de-rected. Line two discovered.

During one night of sexcapades, I couldn’t recall which, we were having some drinks before the roll playing began. She would come in, bringing her bag of whatever hotness she would wear that night. We would catch up, have a few drinks, she would go change in the bedroom, I would set up that night’s fun, and it was on. Well, during one of these drinking and catching up chats we had a little bit more than usual to drink. I have a bar in my apartment, and I was behind it pouring champagne far too fast. We were talking, joking, having a good time; let’s face it ladies, I’m charming. I went to my fridge to get the third bottle of champagne, pull off the foil, wire, aim, fire.

Being the son of a chef and restaurant owner, I am normally one with the cork, but I try to refrain from firing one off in my apartment. You see, I’m a half-assed Buddhist and have a nice Buddha shrine in my living room. Buddha is cool with everything except being shot in the face with a cork and shattered on the floor. I call myself a half-assed Buddhist because I love Karma, but I treat my body like an amusement park, not a temple; hence half-assed.

So, there we are, hotness at the bar, me in the kitchen with a bottle in my hand and off goes the cork. Trying to impress her, I figure I will shoot the cork down my apartment and pour her a glass. In my haste, I didn’t aim properly, and the cork hit the wall across the room. I have both my hands on the bottle when I realize the cork has ricocheted off the wall and is coming straight at my eye at the speed of sound. I wondered what the trip to the hospital would be like. Yes, Doctor, I shot myself, but in my emotional throws, my suicide was foiled because instead of a gun I used a bottle of bubbly. How many times have I laughed at the warning labels on champagne bottles and the funny pictures of cartoons hitting themselves with a cork? Is it possible to have sex with a cork in my eye? I figured she would be a little turned off.

There I was, the “Master” trying to pour a glass of champagne for the “Slave” and the dipshit “Master” is going to blind himself with a cork. Premature corkulation. Why couldn’t my parents have said, “Be careful with the bottle of champagne; you’ll shoot your eye out?” I was great with the BB gun. The cork is getting closer to my face and now she realizes I’m about to be Kennedy-ed. Forget the magic bullet, look at this fucking cork. Out of the corner of my eye, I see her cover her mouth getting ready to laugh, scream, and sympathize. However, this turns out.

Suddenly, I realize time has stopped. I look at my dog, and a drop of drool is floating in the air below him frozen in time. A hummingbird is flying outside the window, and its wings are still.

All these thoughts and sights overwhelmed me, yet I couldn’t react to the damn cork about to headshot me. Frozen in time, unable to move, I awaited my inevitable corky fate. Time began again, and the cork closed in on its target. I braced for the impact of my masochistic bottle opening, when out of the corner of my eye I see a hand. Moving faster than a fat kid running down an ice cream truck, this hand rises to protect my face. I realize it’s my hand moving, and I’m drunker than I thought. I have somehow caught the cork.

Staring at my hand, like a kid who just caught his first fly ball, completely amazed by my subconscious drunken reflexes, I turn to her. She is sitting on the barstool staring at me as if I have just cured cancer while climbing Everest to save her from the abominable snowman. Wet as April. She couldn’t believe it. Had I done this on purpose or accident, she thought to herself. Is my “Master” really this good? Not sure what to do, I came to a sudden conclusion. I handed her the cork with all my misplaced bravado and simply said. “You like my new trick?” And it was on. 

I still try to catch the cork when no one is around…

I’m never even close.

As always long live the writers

Taylor Oceans

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Reflexes

Well America as you know I have gone legit.  Every dollar I have is legal. Whether this is good is still be determined but hey I figured I would give it a go. I will say Jesus you guys work a lot for very little money. Or at least the working class and that is where I find myself currently. Moving on.

Today me and my buddy were demoing a brick keystone arch. It was about 15 feet high so we had a basic ladder scaffold set up and are bashing the shit out of this wall drinking beer and having a normal day. It is a bud of mine and we combined our companies and can do just about any build you can think of. With epic lights should you choose that was my side of the biz. So brick wall, shaky scaffolding and terrible beer. Since masonry is my buds side of the biz and we both know carpentry he is point man on this job. We are trying to support some of this arch while we demo it in pieces so the entire thing does not fall and kill us. That is not the way I like to get stoned. So we have this crazy plan, or he did, and we went forward. For the record I said the entire thing would fall on us. I take out the support exactly as he said and Issac Newton covered his eyes with my Dad and everyone up in heaven watching the ridiculous life I lead. The support goes and my bud goes “O SHIT!!!!” The weight was to much and this idiot is trying to hold the entire thing himself.

This is when my reflexes take over. Before I know it instead of running for my life I’m under this fucking wall trying to hold it with my bud. So there we are 15 feet over cement on shitty scaffold with about 400 lbs of brick and mortar about to kill us. At least the shitty beer was safe in the cooler. (Side bar America. I don’t like to up products but the Yeti cooler will change your life.) My reflexes are running me and I still am not in control the Jedi in me is. Or Sith Lord Vader did a few good things. Just think a condom would have changed the entire movie.

Suddenly the arch gives. It is falling apart over us. Now since I was cutting the support I was not directly under this thing when the fun started. My bud is on my right, centered under this thing. My side caved first but he was under more of it so again reflexes take over. First they get me under this fucker instead of back at the beer cooler laughing saying I told you so as I call the ambulance. Now the arch is disintegrating around us and again I should have bailed off the ladder. A fifteen feet fall is much better then a fifteen feet fall with bricks coming down on top of you like the fucking Coyote. So the bricks are falling and my side caved and I dodged it. My bro is a bigger dude and not so fast. His side caves and his arms are still in the air holding two fucking bricks as this arch rains around him. Fucking Virginia Gentleman reflexes take over again and I shield his face from these big fucking bricks some still stuck together in big 8 brick 40 lbs fucking boulders with my left arm because my right is keeping me from falling.

So my left forearm fucking kills America and I typed this through the pain to tell you this before I drink to much and forget. Rum and coke now for the record. Fuck beer.

Our reflexes define us America. Fight or Flight mother fuckers. We are Americans bitch all of us should fight. In all walks of life. We should try new things and be afraid everyday. We should be more tolerant to each others ideas and beliefs. We should fight to preserve what freedoms we still have in this country because they are going fast America. We need to fight every day but not for ourselves we need to fight for each other. We need a weapon of mass construction. We need to fight to build a better America for us all. Also I wear condoms. Magnums for the record ladies. You dudes with kids should be the one telling me this message. Fight for those little bastards.

Long Live the Writers

Taylor Mother Fucking Oceans

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Oceans

Bottle Dance

Quick one before she wakes up. Gentleman make your women laugh when they are sad no matter how much of your pride and rum you must risk. She was having, mother of all, bad days none of your damn business what, but she was so sad a back scratch was not cutting it. Bit the bullet and put on her favorite movie. All three hours of Fiddler on the Roof. Still not cutting it. To make her smile I put a hat on, bottle of rum on my head, and frankly nailed this dance drunk as fuck when it came up, just to make her laugh.  Didn’t drop bottle once, I rock.  Spoil your woman and pets. Only way to treat them.

The Dealer

Running across the street loading his illegal pistol the dealer only worries he gets there in time.  Only seconds ago he received a text, “Help someone is in my house”.  He had been enjoying another lost soul on his couch.  Drunk and drugged out of there minds they caressed, fondle, and please each other trying to escape there reality.  Her a stripper looking for a good time and a discount on coke, him a coke dealer just trying to forget.

Suddenly there embrace is interrupted by the sound of a text.  The dealer knows a text at four in the morning only means one thing. Trouble.  Trouble had become his new ally. Trouble distracted him, Trouble please him.  Trouble was a possible way out.  The dealer reads “Help someone is in my house”.  He knows the number.  It’s the girls field hockey house across the street.  He reaches back finds his integrity, and without another thought rushes off his stripper, grabs his gun, cloths, and a last look at his dog.  He rushes through his door dressing and loading.

He knows what has happened.  The dealer warned those girls they lived in the wrong part of town.  Realtors are fucking liars.  This house is filled with some of the hottest, riches, naive woman the dealer had ever seen.  He was jealous of their cookie cuter lives and cookie cuter families.  Broken homes raise bitter kids.  He was close to one of the girls, but the rest pegged him true.  A coke dealer.  She saw something else.  He had warned them time and time again lock your door your not in a gated community anymore. There are worst people then me around here.  The dealers warnings always went unheeded.

He rushed up the front steps to the front door hoping he wasn’t to late.  How long had they been in there?  How many are holding the girls hostage?  Are they armed?  Why do I do this shit?  He may have lost his hope, but he had never lost his integrity.  He gets to the front door says “God hates a coward” and rushes through the door.  Of course unlocked stupid bitches.  He charges through the front door not caring what is inside.  He will get to her bed room.  Damn all in his path.  His gun tightly clenched the dealer scans the house through the sites as he rushes upstairs.

Half way up the stairs he realizes she moved her bed room to the dinning room when her other friend moved in.  These girls were packed in this house like hot Mexicans.  God bless field hockey skirts.  The dealer screams her name to find her.  Echoing back is his name screamed in fear and pain.  He knows he is to late.  He charges back down the stairs still poised to fire at anything not sexy.  He gets to the foyer and is abruptly stopped by two shadows in the kitchen.  Two very large figures much larger then him or any woman in the house.  He aims and sees one of their faces through the sites.  Its to dark to see details but they lock eyes and the dealer reads fear.  The dealer squeezes the trigger ready to take a life.  He didn’t care about the repercussions, only the wronged woman.  Damn these men to worst pain then the dealer could imagine.  Servile swine.  The gun cocked and before it fired into the mans eye he turned, ran out the back door, diving over the railing his accomplice on his heels.

The dealer roars her name again and she responds from the dinning room.  He kicks the door open lunges in gun drawn, ready awake and he sees nothing.  He whispers her name.  It is met with the most tender, hopeful, grateful, voice.  The dealer had never heard his name said in such reverence. He still couldn’t see her when a hand emerges from under the bed covered in laundry.   Then a field hockey stick.  Then her smiling, crying face.  The poor girl was hiding under her bed with her field hockey stick.  “You came!  Where are they?”  The dealer thought and wasn’t sure.  They ran out, but the back door was still open.  The house house is dark they could be any where.  Did they come back?  To keep her calm he says there is no one.  A noble lie.  But the dealer tells her to get behind him, stay behind him and stay close while he sweeps the house.  With her hand on his shoulder and her head down they move through the house.  The dealer shielding her from any incoming fire with his body.  Three stories of dark house to sweep.  The dealer guides her to he back door.  He closes it locks it and moves to the basement door.  Her hand on his shoulder he turns and says calmly “Stay close. Stay behind me. Stay quiet.”

They enter the dark basement.  The dealer knows they will get off the first shot from the dark.  They could be anywhere and they know he is coming down the stairs.  He can’t dive for cover he is covering her.  He will stand.  He will take it.  He will return accurate fire.  The Dealer repeats this to himself over and over again.  He will stand.  He will take the bullets.  He will give them back.  She will survive.  Good death.  Basement clear back upstairs.  Foyer clear.  One more flight.  Her hand still on his shoulder.  Upstairs to the other girls bed rooms.  Clear.  Clear.  Every door he opens he knows could be his last.  The dealer will stand.  The dealer will take it.  The dealer has already taken so much pain.  Lost everything but his life and dog.  He will take it and return accurate fire.  He will see his Dad at the end of the bar drinking chivas regal.  Clear.  Two more doors.  Clear… Is that one of the girls boy friends cowering?  Wow she got a keeper.  Last door.  “God hates a coward”  he says her hand still on his shoulder.  Will this be it?  Will this be the end of the pain.  Clear…  Not yet Dad save me a seat…

He did it. He finally did something right.  Something he could be proud of.  Something he would want to remember.  The dealer put foot to ass for some one in need.  His triumphant revaluation was interrupted by her saying “Where the hell are the cops I called them before you.”  A shudder went up the spine of the dealer.  He is holding an illegal fire arm. He is coked out of his mind.  So high off purple he is looking down on the space station. So drunk on rum a pirate would way easy matey.  You called the cops the dealer whispered hoping it a lie.  “Yes” she said

The dealer returned to his cold reality knowing he must flee.  He shouted to everyone I have an illegal firearm.  You all know what I do.  I was never here.  He takes another look into her eyes ashamed of the choices he has made and he returns to the shadows.

Running down the stairs to the front door he hides his gun in his pocket and opens the front door.  “Freeze don’t move or we will fire!”  Frozen the dealer raises his hands.  Time stops and he ponders his choices.  Do nothing…  They search me illegal firearm five years.  Search warrant for my house five to ten distribution.  Illegal firearms with distribution five on top.  I will get out at 40 if I’m a good little bitch.  Not acceptable.  Draw, aim for the knees, suicide by cops…  Not fair to cops or the girls who will watch me die like robo cop on the front porch.  Not acceptable.  Bluff…  Shout I’m the neighbor, with  hands up, get in there and help the women and one pussy guy.  Acceptable.  “I’m the neighbor, I’m so scared, there are criminals in there help get in there!”  They brush the dealer aside hoping for some action.  He is left there amazed at the shit he has found himself in.  He says “God hates a coward” mockingly shaking his head walking by five police cars across the street to his old life.

The dealer didn’t quit that day,but he never forgot the sound of his name said by someone he saved.  A few years and many more mistakes down the road he did clean up.  He decided to write.  And he wrote this for you today.

Oceans

Aurora

She shuddered from the force of the storm. The skipper at her helm keeping her facing the waves. The crew’s knuckles white holding on with every fiber of there body. Blinded by the sea spray the skippers eyes are the only to penetrating the storm. She shudders as another waver breaks over her bow. Water rushes over the decks enveloping the crew who strive to hold on. There life lines wipe in the wind. A half inch nylon rope lashing them to her deck. The crew’s only insurance from the freezing seas. Three minutes in the icy waters will cause hypothermia five minutes death. The storm is so strong the skipper could never turn her and recover a lost crew. As soon as anyone hit the icy waters they are claimed by the sea. The inevitable fate to those who live on the oceans. No head stones only the faceless sea and all of her disciples. Another wave breaks over the bow deluging the crew in icy water. They shiver as their dry suites are penetrated around their necks.

For six hours they have fought the storm from her carbon fiber decks. Exhaustion sapping the strength of the crew but the skipper remains vigilant. He has never felt more alive and content. He knows this is his place doing battle with the Oceans. Keeping her facing the storm he steers through the waves. She rises over another thirty foot wave only to drop into another’s belly. Emotionless demons grabbing at her rigging and decks. She strains to rise again and she explodes through another peak. The crew tack her sails as she turns through the waves. She tells the skipper to go more starboard. He commands the crew to dress she is luffing. They lash lines to the winch drums and the gears turn. Her hydraulic’s ache as thousands of pounds are pulled in. The water is forced out of the soaking lines from the tension. Her sails are full again as she drops into another wave. The sun is setting now and the crew know storms are infinitely more dangerous in the dark. Its harder to see the waves coming and in these confused seas she must face the waves head on or she will swamp. One wave over her stern will swamp her. Flooding her cabins locking the sail handlers below while she sinks. A deadly embrace as they dive together. The crew would reach for there leg knives to cut away from her sinking decks. Her lines grabbing there limbs as they try to swim to the surface. Only to freeze to death in minutes. The skipper wouldn’t cut away, not with men below. He orders raise the storm jib and prepare for night sailing. A flurry of activity ensues in perfect unspoken coordination as sails are dropped switched and storm jibs are raised. The skipper rests his crew as he and his girl enter the storm. Blinded by the darkness he must listen to her as they dance through the waves. She moans and cracks as she is hit by waves telling the skipper to adjust his course for each wave. He feels her roll through the water and he keeps her level. Every ten seconds another rise and another fall. As they cross the ocean together. The electronics have been flooded so with no navigational gear except his compass, glow stick, and intuition he steers her through the storm. Her body language his guide.

Hours pass yet the skipper is attentive to his girl. The crew exhausted from weeks of racing and more weeks to come try to sleep below deck. The utmost confidence in their skipper and his girl. The skipper takes another drag off his e-cig since the sea spray extinguishes his Marlboro reds. He has been awake for 48 hours predicting a path through the storm as they approached it. Holding his girl on course they have gained three hundred miles in the race by his navigation through the storm. Only three other racers entered the storm one lost a mast and was forced adrift. The other turned and ran out the way they came after losing two crew to the indiscriminate depths. The skipper and his girl have taken the lead around cape horn and the final leg, of the Atlantic, is all that remains from victory for his country his crew and his girl. The sun rises and he sees a break in the storm “Not yet he says” The oceans don’t want him yet. The warm sun hits his face, he closes his eyes caresses the wheel and thanks his love. Aurora has gotten him through another storm. Some day they will go down together but not yet. Not yet…

P.S. This was the epic music I found today to help me write this. Wanted the epic tale so needed the music to match.

Sail hard disciples…

Poetry

Figured I would try my hand at some poetry since I’ve been reading poetry blogs all day.  What do you think america should I stick with pros and leave the poetry to the romantics?

The Toll

The way the ship lay still and dank

will remind you of the day it sank

the people astir all over the boat

praying and praying that it will float

The sounds of the people wailing and screaming

praying and praying that they are only dreaming

As she sank they ran to the stern

they now know the lesson to learn

Don’t be consumed with wealth or gold

for the grim reaper comes for the meek and the bold

Then you feel the water rise

floating there your body dies

Then you are merely a soul

forever more paying the grim reapers toll

6,000 disciples holy hell

Added face book and WordPress together today and found out I have over 6,000 disciples.  That is six times the population of the small town I’m from or 240 times my high school graduating class of 25.  Just wanted to say thanks for reading and I will keep on writing.  I will leave you with one of my  favorite poems.  Got it from my favorite x-files. S4 E7 “musing of the smoking man”.  Everyone’s homework is to watch it.  And to remember you can always try to change no matter what you have done.  But it is a choice you must make every day.

Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget

falls drop by drop upon the heart,

until, in our own despair,

against our will,
comes wisdom
through the awful grace of God.

Aeschylus

So its not what happens to you America.  Its how you get up, dust yourself off, make yourself a rum and coke, bang a woman till she loves you and strut down the road with a smile on your face and a twinkle in your eye knowing what ever happens your wits, integrity, and charm will get you through.

Oceans

Death Wish

Death Wish

Sitting in the chair while my guard paces in front of me I wonder how I get myself into these jams. My supplier had been killed in a drive by and I was always on the look out for a purer, cheaper, hook up. I’d made the mistake of bribing one of my customers to take me to his source. Luckily addicts could be made to do anything with the right persuasion and two grams cocaine normally opened any door. However I wish I had never opened this one because I’m not liking what I’m finding. The addict had taken me to this house in the suburbs. We had a quick meeting at the front door and we were told to go around back, the boss was in the shed. Having walked into many worst situations I figured what could go wrong in a shed. I was in for a painful realization.

We entered the shed shook hand with the boss and were polite. With smiles on their faces that is how criminals strike. The door is slammed behind me, I’m forced into a chair at gun point and the addict is thrown out as the “Boss” shouts I’m tired of your shit come back and I will kill you. He returns locks eyes on me and peers into my soul. All dealers, myself included, have to trust their instincts because in that business of police narcs, thieves, bribes, drive bys, and murder your instincts are the only thing you can trust. Tragically I resembled the nark on this particular day and let me tell you why.

In my apartment building there is no washer and dryer and being a guy I let every single piece of clothing I have get dirty then I consider doing laundry. This particular night I was wearing a baby blue t-shirt and khaki shorts. Not even cargo. Ever seen a guy dressed like a dork try to buy a few thousand dollars of cocaine. It’s not pretty.

So there I am seated in a chair while three armed men decide my fate. We go through the normal dance of are you a cop, you going to bust us? Are you a thief with friends outside waiting to rob us? All the hypothetical dealers worst nightmare, however non can be proven one way or the other and I start to accept that I’m either going to die or beat these three guys to near death with the chair I’m in. I don’t want to try for their guns because if I kill one and the others get me its a lot harder to apologize for knocking a guy out then killing him with his own gun. I start plotting like a mad man planing every move in my upcoming battle. I will grab the chair with my right hand and swing on the biggest guy on my right while starting to kneel so if shots are fired they may shoot each other over my head. The man behind me will be second, with a charge into the wall using the chair as a ram. The boss will be taken out with the hammer hanging on the wall after I charge the second body-guard into the wall. I will grab the hammer with my right hand pivot crouch to doge fire and heave the hammer at his face.

My hands tighten around the chair and I say “God hates a coward” to myself. My muscles tense and I ready for the fight of my life.

Will I survive?  Probably since I wrote this but how the hell did I do it?  Buy my book to find out.  Link below

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Hope you enjoyed my rough draft

~Oceans